LOVE

I couldnt believe that my mind had changed thoroughly.LOVE is such like blood and i am like vampire now,i am thirsty.

空虚感

现在的我，是一个人坐在阅读室里发呆的。昨天的平安夜和这里的朋友一起去庆祝了，果然和自己预期的想要的气氛完全不一样。在乌节路的圣诞气氛很高潮和疯狂，但我却丝毫没有被感染到的感觉。我一直是处于勉强应付朋友和郁闷的状态，但为了不让朋友失望我还是装出很尽兴的样子。拒绝了到朋友家过夜和隔天去教堂观看表演的邀请，理由是我不喜欢到别人家做客。但清楚我的人绝对知道这是个借口，老实说呆在这里久了，对这里的不适感厌恶感是越来越多了。我宁愿选择一个人发呆寂寞，也不愿勉强自己去应付别人，这个本来就是我的性格。大家说圣诞节是要人多才会热闹，但我一直都认为只要有好朋友在身边，圣诞节才会是快乐的。希望明年的圣诞节我能够在我熟悉我爱的人身边度过，坦白说，我越来越讨厌新加坡了

chillax-ing

After a series of restless exam,i am currently in holiday now.Resting in home now,enjoying the time that i can sit in room and do nothing.Listening to his favourite song,looking to the garden outside my room,but after a week,everything will go back to normal.I hate the fast-paced life of singapore,it make me felt extremely stressed,yet singapore is really a perfect place to study.Just look at the people here,motivation of studying is everywhere in here,i need to overcome the stress and lazinees,i am convinced that i can do it.But before that i need time to CHILLAX

败

读的半死，结果看到考试题目——我顿时傻眼,经济-完，modern chem-半死，基因学-未知，物理化学-未知。综合起来，tidak memuaskan!!我生平第一次对考试那么没信心。真的越来越有压迫感了，进到这种著名大学果然是不好受的。现在灵验了，最好是不要有C，虽然经济的机率很高。。。谁能够理解那种你满怀挫败感的走出考场时，偶尔听到一两个中国人说“满容易的”的心情，我真的服了

深晨

三点了，我还在啃书。这种日子真的很难过，不读就等着做帮人垫底的人，读成绩也不会好到哪里去。你会问我我何时变得那么的消极，但你相信我，初怀大志的我，在这里看到了一群类似头脑结构不明（出奇的大和万能）的个体，你就知道消极的态度在这里是常见的。就这样保佑我明天考试顺利！！

Recent life

在这四个月的大学生活里，我完成了自己定下的目标，实现了自己的梦想，跨越了以前的障碍。我不是以前那个只会成天只会埋头苦读的学生。通过成为团体和活动的执委，我学习了策划，合作，我开始享受大家一起策划，完成活动的成就感。我也开始学习各种球类运动，我也参与不同语言的文化团体，学习不一样的表演技巧。我发现在参与活动和团体里得到的成就感和友情，是特别的难忘。我在这里也因为积极的参与活动，认识了一群新同伴。我也发现生活的颜色一直以来都是自己决定的，而现在我决定要为他涂上不一样的颜色

无常

命运即使是自己的，也不能完全拥有。生命即使是自己的，也不能完全掌握。只因世事无常，这一刻你正在与朋友相谈愉快，下一刻从朋友得到的恶讯能让你瞬间跌入谷底。我，真的很爱，很珍惜，我的朋友。。。

句点

我还记得以前在班上时常和朋友们讨论自己人生最重要的是什么，大家都不约而同的说出了自己对知识的追求才是人生最重要的目标。就在这个时刻，我突然沉思起这个决定起来，进了大学自己的思想也逐渐得起了变化。我发现人最害怕的还是寂寞，所以人生最重要的旅程，我想现在的我会给大家不一样的答案吧。。。

Finishing my modern chemistry paper yesterday and dragging exhausted body went back to hostel,i damn want a sleep for 24 hours ,but i cant even take a minute rest as i still need to go for band practice,what the hell!!The only thing that consoled me was that i am confident enough to score 40 out of 50 for my first exam.I think i still havent lose my passion in studying yet,it is just that i want to experience a meaningful university life thus i try to take part in more activities.I promise i would find a balance between it,woo i still need to continue to study for the math and econs paper on the wednesday!!Bless me god and i am definitely expecting the oncoming week as i would have my first band performance !!!

冲动

打开了沛然的facebook相簿，看到了大家在离别前夕和台湾时的合照，有种突然的失落感。觉得地理距离也的确把我们的感情冲淡了，毕竟无法参与六年好友的回忆是令我感到心酸和无奈的。在新加坡我和洁，雷和升的见面机会碍于课业和活动上的繁忙根本没有办法时常见面。偶然的相遇也只能互相寒暄。老实说，我也开始对这里的生活感到厌恶了，毕竟缺少了中学六年挚友的相伴的不安感，你问我会不会对之前所作的选择后悔，我的答案是不，但我的确有一种冲动，一种想象把隔膜冲破的冲动。

尝试

大学生活已过了一个多月，充实感+忙碌感+疲惫感是可想而知的。但我同时多了成就感，因为接触了各个方面的事物。就比如说昨天就在实验室里做了人生第一个将近五个小时的实验，如愿成为了乐团的主唱（超兴奋），参加了四个歌唱团体！！！，做了自己以向来都很反感的文书！和财政！！,学了网球，长跑（我以前可是和运动完全没关系的），今天更首次学了键盘看谱，明天又要去学游泳，真的觉得进大学来就是要接触不同的事物，我现在终于发现，我不想只当一根成天躲在房间啃书的worm!!

祝福

给予无法目送他们去台湾的原因，只好写了这篇文章祝福即将离开的朋友们：
紫琦：有自信才会有目标，有目标才会有动力，有动力才会有成果，有成果才会有成就，希望带了台湾你会蜕变，蜕变成一个更有自信，主见的紫琦。
俞成：老实一句，理科不是你的料，但我不否认你的学习能力。希望到了侨大鲵能立刻申请去第一类组，你的坦白和直率就是你的优点，到了台湾要好好用功，你爸妈都对你有所期望。
佩然，廷行，和其它要去台湾的朋友们：祝你们找到人生另外一个里程碑，加油！！

可悲

难得百忙中抽空浏览了部落格，无意中看到了JJ的部落格是这么写的“i dont care to lose my mother tongue,it's just a language.I juz want to gain my english."多么可悲的一句话，作为一名华人，为了融入西方社会和迎合国际需求竟然能够放弃自己的根。。不知道其他人看了会有怎样的感受，会是不以为然，或是义愤填膺，抑或是理所当然。自己必须在一个以英文为主要沟通和学习语言的环境里学习，虽然我的英文不怎么样，但我敢说我从未忘记过自己是毕业于提倡华文教育的学校，正因如此，我始终秉持着双语学习的理念。或许别人在看到这篇部落格时会抨击我，但我想说的只要是一名华裔，看到这句话你都会生气吧？！

崭新

大学生活也过了大半个月，这个礼拜也正式开始上课了。身为全新大lecture+tutorial+lab最多的科系之一的学生,我大半的时间都在冷气教室中度过了。再加上即将来临的CCA活动，我相信我的生活会很充实。这个星期五宿舍举行了第一次的block meeting,以选出宿舍委员会和运动会委员会的人选，托大家的“厚爱”，我两个都中选了。被选为了宿舍委员会的文书+财政，和运动会田径类的队长（话说你舍时会田径了？==）。昨天更连续开了自己生平中头两次的会议，第一次觉得自己在会议中扮演了重要的角色，成就感可想而知。说真的，我越来越觉得自己真的很幸运，幸运的获得了跳班前往独中的机会，幸运的认识了一班独中死党，幸运的考取了好成绩（好像不该这样说），幸运的踏进了这所校园的门槛。幸运的进入了大学生活丰富的hall,幸运的又结识了一班好朋友。人生中真的有种种的惊喜，但仔细回想，惊喜还不源自于不懈的努力！所以说我要感谢命运给于我一个崭新的学习环境，但同时我也要感谢自己这十八年来的坚持和努力，而且我会继续这个拼劲，i will make it as the proudest!

weariness

Waking up at the 10am and dragging my shut-down body,i went to the UHC and saw a doctor.First thing i need to do when reached there was scanning my temperature.39.2 celcius,kind of shocking to me.I was isolated in a room as nurse said that i might have influenza.I waited anxiously at the room and after 30 minutes,the doctor finally came.She did a blood test for me and the result showed that H1N1 negative,meaned no infection.Woh,it's a relieve.After taking my medicine,once again i went back to hostel to have a rest.I guessed I was having too many activities recently and i could only sleep for 2-3 hours a day.That's why doctor told me to have a rest for a week.Indeed,i need a break..

hassle u life

Academic year is going to commence on 3th of August,ultimately all my core and breadth modules had been decided.Myriad of activities overwhelmed me but i found my life with satisfactory.Choosing to enter a hall is really a good choice for those who keen on having a real u life.I can tell u that a normal sleeping time for hall is after 3am.Rags,dinner,dance,games,and the traditions of hall-supper can only be experienced in hall.Altough i am still in my way of adapting them,yet i will try my best.Also i am going to take 3 CCA out-hall and 2 CCA in-hall for the ongoing semester.For a guy who dont join the CCA for nearly 3 years,it's a miracle.I guess i will enjoy it.Hassle life really intensified my life,however i need to apologise to those who are requesting me to go out but i ignored them,i will meet your guys next time surely.An exciting u life is approaching soon,cant wait to exprience it!

Embarkation

Hall orientation is approaching soon.New friends are going to mingle in my social life again. Bless me not to encounter with "culture shocks"...

novel life

Anticipating desirously for a novel life, ultimately i stepped in the one of the prestigous university in Asia Pacific-National University of Singapore.Exuberance and anxiety blended in my body,imagining that i am gonna be one of the topest student in NUS just made me excited.I chose to join the AMCISA FOC which is exclusively for the independent high school.All the prospective schoolmate are being so enthusiastic,the conventional wisdom just diminished during the moment i chatting with them.We had a marvelous time together,we played the game together,we chatted each other and we are holding our backs each other.I was overwhelmed on that moment,but i wasnt crying.Those international students are being friendly,i made friends with guys from british,australia,china,india,vietnam and indonesia in these few days.Socializing would not be a easy stuff for me but i swear that i would try my best to be a friendly person in their eyes.We will have a dinner and entertainment games after the QET,i cant wait to know more new friends.Importantly,i wouldn't forget your guys!Miss you all always

Best regards,
ERIC

饯言

距离离别的日子只剩下区区的一个礼拜，不要说有无不舍的心情，而是说有无无奈的心情。当初决定做朋友时也清楚分离是必然的，我也只能用无奈的心情来接受。我不能不舍，因为有得必有失。我时常想去到那儿还会不会遇到像在这儿的朋友，这般的热心，这般的健谈幽默，这般的有个性，这般的聊个不停，这般的体谅自己。。我不是一个容易混入别人圈子的人，只因我的性格太被动太自我了，我真的要感谢你们对我任性，幼稚，无知和无数个过失的体谅。希望自己的性格真的能在接触更广的圈子时改变。离别在即，我还是对陪伴我走过这段岁月的你们说出我最 真实的话。林伯，你很好，不需要改变什么，唯一要改变的就是不要在一只穿那件giordano的衣服了。钦，你最好，什么都好，你以后会是个万人迷，加油！琦，尝试对自己有自信点，任何人都不会想做自己不想做的事，但有时受迫于现实，你还是得做，所以加油。。洪世彬，麻烦把你的生理时钟调会正常的吧，傅妈妈真的很担心你，你以后会成为美国图书馆的图书管理员，加油= =爱玲，有任何问题欢迎来问我，你的头发很直，但不是自然的。说到这里，谢谢观看

剖白

今天只有一班的学生要教，带着轻松的心情教完后。回家冲了凉，然后就上网，和对面海的聊了几句，就打开了Itune,选来选去还是选了kenny G 的the moment来听。最近震得疯狂迷上萨斯可风这个乐器的音色，我不知道我这股兴趣可以维持多久，希望能顶到四年之后，因为我满想学这个乐器，然后在台上表演之类的。发了一阵白梦后，又想到了我这班学生，下个礼拜后自己就将正式卸下老师的这个责任，有点不舍，但做老师的责任太神圣了，我不想误人子弟，所以。。。学生们，自己拾升啊。。。我会为你们祈祷的。想了想，又想到了自己出席大学开学典礼那天西装笔挺的白痴模样，皮鞋+领带+衬衫+西装裤，好的，我又发梦了。。。= =

Impending aspiration

After deliberating for nearly two weeks,ultimately i came out with my prospective study schedule.I will major in chemstry which i decided several months ago,minor in forensic science and econ and taking korean language as an extra modules.I am wondering if is it gonna be too early to declare my preference but i know things will gonna be unprecedented and tough in singapore especially in NUS.I need to make sufficient preparation and i can say that i am ready for my first exam of the university - Qualifying English Test.Endeavour leads to triumph!YEAH

负面

你尝试做好件事，抑或尝试改变一件事，愿就是求变求精。有没有发现到当你尝试作出改变时，身边总会有一堆灌输你负面情绪（简单来说就是泼你冷水）的人。可能这他说的是事实，也可能他只是为了打击你自信心来建立他的自信心。无论何种原因，我觉得一个人如果尝试做出好的改变，无论成功与否，我们都应该鼓励他（如果你不愿意的话就保持沉默吧）。就好像阿雷和钦健身，我不会说他们“你练了像没练咯”而是婉转说“加油”。惠洁说他要变美，我不会说她“白痴”，而是保持沉默，起码这样不会打击到他人的自信心。不知道诸位身边会不会有一堆这样的人啊？

po上自己最新的眼镜^^

坚持

近半年了，我都在坚持天天上网看the star吸取新的英文单字，这下来我不敢说自己的英文水平是最棒的。但我可以肯定的是我的英文水平又到了另一个阶级。半年来累计了不少学习英文的诀窍，我觉得学英文如果不是为了单纯的兴趣，那就是为了应付日后的大学和社会生活。那学的英文当然要食普遍于现今的，这就是为何我选择了阅读英文报纸为提升语文水平的原因。出现于报纸的单字都会是和时事息息相关的，当然文章的句子中也会出现不同的句子结构。除此之外，我也规定自己每学了一百个单字就书写一篇时事论文的规定。a型流感，数理英化，北韩核试，理大事件等轰动国内国外的时事我都尝试用一个中立者的角度去剖析，我觉得论文最重要是两点：事实和公正，这样的论文才能令读者信服。最近的自己也想大学学长借了了语法参考书，好让自己在书写文章是能有更多不同的变化。我也会不定时地阅读故事书，谚语格言以获得额外的知识。摆脱了中学生活是不是该摆脱读书生活？不，因为我从不觉得学习是一种负担，相反地他是一种动力，正面的精神寄托让我找到人生目标。
我会继续努力的

另一个

意识到人与人之间的感情是可以很单纯的。今天尝试了当奶爸的感觉，借住了和六位自己的小表弟表妹相处，悟出了人可以无私的奉献出感情，直率的表达出感情和单纯的在一起。说实话，有点被自己的能力吓倒，想不到自己在小朋友心目中还是位满和蔼的人。我要强调的是我不是个孤僻的人，只不过我选择以另一个方式让自己的生活圈子变得更单纯，直接。

存在

越来越觉得个人化的生活是最好的。做事不需要顾及别人的眼光，说话不需要受限于任何规矩。未来是建立在自己的努力身上，朋友的扶持固然重要，但谁都清楚世界是现实的，问题回归到原点还是得自己解决。与其这样，不如训练自己，让自己变得更历练，能承受解决任何的难题。在别人的印象中我清楚知道他们都认为我是个有目的的人，为目的而帮助别人的人，一个非常狗眼看人低的人。没办法，小时候出身于一个封建思想的家庭，自己的爸爸因为得不到爸妈的宠爱，再加上家境清寒，从小就必须承受婆婆，姑姑们的轻蔑。永远都记得婆婆对爸爸说的“请你搬出这个家吧”，对妈妈说的“我不会帮你照顾孩子”，对我和哥哥说的“不要动家里的任何东西，这是个没规矩的表现”。试问从小在这种冷讽中成长的我如果不设立起保护程式，那现在的我应该会被伤得很重。对于过去无心的伤害，我不予置评。人总要往前看，我会抛下这一切，我需要证明一个东西——我存在的价值

等待

灰的可以的天空正和此刻的心情相应，反复地听着萨克斯风伴奏曲，无非想让自己的心情好点。沉浸于戏剧中，突然发现自己万般不愿从这虚拟的世界中抽身。这世界真的太现实了，现实的没有一丝温暖，现实地每个人都只是个个体。什么时候人生才能有个大团圆结局，对我来说这似乎很遥远，只因现在的我就连未来的生活是如何也还不知道。并不是害怕受到伤害，而是究竟自己能不能在未来的日子找到对的目标和人。渴望着平静的人生，现在的自己只能等待，等待着他出现。。

一个人

对生活的种种的习以为常,习惯妈妈买的早餐,习惯打开电脑观看我喜欢的戏剧,习惯在夜晚关起门听着ipod.无奈这种生活离自己越来越远了,对自己家里的人事物留恋不已.感觉越来越强烈,但我清楚我必须在不久的现在放弃这一切.作任何事我逐渐习惯一个人了,伤心时孤独时听听歌睡睡觉疗伤.发现一个人的生活也可以很平静,我需要平静,因为它能带个我安定的感觉.早认清随着年龄的增长,顾虑的东西也会越来越多.但对新的环境,我肯定能适应的,因为我开始觉得享受一个人的日子了...

韩剧瘾的复发

之前因为《宫》而令我中了剧烈的韩剧"毒".奈何上了高三为了成绩着想,忍痛放弃了这个嗜好.如今又吹起了一个哈韩风,在按奈不住下又看了翻译自<流星花园>的<花样男子>(中国官方就不能再给个好听点的剧名啊(怨..)).结果昨天看了一集,才发现自己还真的是天生的哈韩迷!一连看了十集到凌晨一点半(话说我准备考试也不过到十二点,愧!!!).人人看韩剧是追帅哥美女,我不否认这是其中个重要因素.但老土重复式肥皂的剧情,能风靡亚洲还是有原因的.韩剧中煽情的配乐绝对是居功至伟,每每男女主教深情接吻,分手(都是些逼不得已的烂理由= =),抑或生离死别,都会有令人动容的音乐带动观众进入画面,听了不是让人松口气就是哭到一把鼻涕一把泪.老实说韩剧的内容可谓营养全无,追剧对我来说并不是为了得到什么人生启示,现实中过于残酷的社会会搞垮我们的心灵.如果你累了,那不如躲进韩剧的童话式剧情里慰籍受伤的心灵.这就是为何韩剧能虏获下至儿童上至老一辈的芳心.时常听身边人类不屑偶像剧迷,可能太过理性(也可能是自以为),抑或是现实主义者,人也是肉做的,总会有脆弱的一面.累了就来这个这个避风港吧!
写完了,我又要继续沉沦了...(开心的说^^)
(话说别把台湾偶像剧和韩剧扯在一起了,这根本不是同各档次的!!!(求~))

Perseverance - Stubborness

Everyone has his own dream to accomplish,regardless his capability.If he is capable of achieving it,then we call it a goal . Contraily,we call it a day-dream.Myriad of choices we can have and we should cut our coats according to our clothes. Unfortunately, human is such a arrogant creature, they will just demand themselves to the perfect.The aptitudes of genius are instinctive, thus we can only perserve to become the top amongst the layman.Yet,if anyone had tried his best but still failed to reach his dream,let's just console yourself as you tried your best.You wont be meaningless as there are always useless creatures existed in the world. Overall, perserverance may lead some of us to our goals,but if we cant touch them,dont keep repeating the same road as you are only turning the perseverance to stubborness,guys.
-Life is diverged with paths,and everyone has his own exclusive path.Thus,cheers for life!

Feat

Finally,all of my students finished their mid-exam in the last friday.The result was released today and my students showed me their papers.I was relieved as most of them score 95 above for all of their papers.My favourite students even scored 100 for five of eight subjects.I felt that i had accomplished a first ever feat as a teacher.As the last month of teaching is approaching,i sincerely hope that i can finish my tuition class with an excellent ending.May all of them continue to work hard on their academy!

As planned,i went to traders hotel to attend the opening session of NUS for prospective students. Meeting with seniors and futuristic companions inspired me indeed.Actually,it changed my perspective towards this university.Passion of seniors to answer our enquires,and i was sorry for my preconception on high school students as they were friendly and talkative.May all of us meet in university in July ya! Undoubtedly,i looked like a little child amongst them.I meet those friends from Jit Sin,St.Xavier,Ping Hwa and Chung Ling and their maturity showed not only through their age,but also their expression and attitude.After the presentation,i got a chance to chat with a Year-1 student majoring in life science. The event ended at 1pm.When i walked out of the hotel,i looked at my watch -23th of May.It's not far away...

悲——的教育

趁空闲又浏览了诸位同学的部落格，说真的看了大家的写的文章，我觉得诸位都在经历着一个过渡期，我又何尝不是如此呀！谢谢部落格把写自己的心情也是可以理解的啦，毕竟我也是时常如此嘛。。话说今天照例位学生进行了家教补习。为了替他们准备接下来的考试，我细心的为他们准备了个科的模拟考卷，好测测他们的实力。结果今天开始了第一科——数学。结果却是令我失望的，我的学生都只获得了七十多分的成绩。说真的，对于低年级学生来说，这些分数的确比较偏低的。不过这却令我意识到他们真的完全葬身于先进的教育制度了，由于先进的学生都过于依赖于教育部的编排课程制度，单元化的习题方式令学生失去了解题意的意识。就以数学中最重要的应用题来说，好似学生们都栽在了理解题目。我问学生们，他们竟然不会无法分辨题目属于何种运算方式（四则运算），即使“平分”，“各"这类暗示性的词语也无法提醒他们。问了问他们，原来问题是处在现今的作业练习都是根据课本单元化分配的，出版商们已事先替学生分类题型了。试问这不是剥夺也令学生失去了最基本的理解能力吗？试问要如何塑造一个拥有独立思考的学生啊?可悲的是家长们竟然对现今学生这种囫囵吞枣的学习方法视而不见，反正只要金榜题名，当个全A状元光宗耀祖就好。听了学生们的解释，冲着自己的直觉，告诫了他们千万不要被这种学习风气荼毒，不过我知道多为一个短期家教，又能帮到什么程度呢？只有在这短暂的时间里，多让他们做做自己准备的习题，希望他们觉悟吧。。

approaching soon...

今天从阿雷口中总算知道了独中应新营的确定日期了，有点期待着个他口中的这个活动，毕竟到新加坡升学真的不是件轻松的事，如果能认识和自己学业背景相同的人应该会不错。英文沟通方面还可以省了省呢，哈哈。。话说会来，惠洁在新加坡也读一个月了，从她开始的极度不适应，到现在的还。。。不错，从她口中得知新加坡的英文水平很高，他去哪儿也变得不是很行。不过我也看开了啦，英文不能就参参讲咯，反正我都不是走正统路线的。刚刚开了电脑就去浏览各位同学的部落格，看了看紫琦的文章，与其就叫他节哀顺变，我告诉他在五月三十号开始去appeal，希望能帮到她啦。。不知道永升和钦的怎样了。。。不过现在我越来越兴奋了，因为我要去读大学了（虽然还有两个月= =）

感觉亏欠了荣成，所以这篇文章就用华语来写写吧^^近期来，看到大家都都为一个目标在奋斗着，要进大学的学英文，要变壮的健身，要考试的读书，要赚学费的找贷学金= =等等等等。而我当然也不例外，身边亲友时常提醒说自己的健康真的很差。身体出现的毛病并不能促使自己维持健康的饮食，只因蔬菜对我来说真的是一个折磨。不过人总会变的啦，至于原因是什么，有点扯，就是。。。爱美啦，哈哈。这几个月我都很在强迫自己吃根多的蔬菜和水果，并且减少油腻和辛辣的食物。并开始了男士们极度抗拒的脸部保养。不过没办法，我这副身材就只能靠脸蛋找女朋友了。。至于效果嘛。。总是会有的，但是有多改善，在给自己多两个月，我会以健康的体魄上大学的，呵呵

秘密-蓝又时

好歌一首，去听听吧

I decided to join the farewell party of JJ in the last minute after i finished my tuition.Indeed,the reason sparked off me was the chance teasing with friends for releasing the stresses faced recently.Eating steamboat especially barbaque one has not been my preference since i hate to sweat when enjoying the dishes,moreover my eyes have to be tortured by smokes.However,i found myself a zero-sore environment as laughters and encouragements from peers really refreshed my mind.And i ate sic scoops of ice-cream ,it's really a satiscfaction.I guess "a friend in need is a friend indeed" should change to "friends in need are friends indeed",hurray!^^

the road not taken

After reading the poem by Robert Frost,i try to fathom the profound meaning of the poem by searching the vocabularies one by one.However, that's when i realized that poem is totally different from the comprehension.We cant merely translate the poem as it showed only apparent meaning.The poem is about the choice of author's life,the author faced the junction in his life and he had to make the choice which road he should take.Ultimately he choose the one less traveled by and had made all the difference.The last two sentence "I took the one less traveled by.And that has made all the difference." are the favourite of most people as they insisted that this two embodied the strenuous undertone but i bemused.The author just wrote that "and that has made all the difference",what if the difference is the sore one?Are people going to continue to love this poem?It's depend on one's value judgement and i can just concluse that nowadays human live in a brutal and realistic society and they tend to rationalize the situation ,thus "difference" would always be the good one.Compared to those two sentences, i would prefer "i doubted if i should ever come back.I shall be tellingthis with a sigh".The last word "sigh"really left a lot of imagination to the readers.Should it be a regret one, or jest?I guess it's a jest to all of us..

Doing "sex" the right way

Sexual abuse has been one of the prime menaces in our country nowadays.Implementation of sentences lost its effiiciency in curbing this criminal problem since a long time ago.Obviously, the amelioration of technology has made the sore imformation accessible to the public. Enticement can always overcome one's morailty, thus alternative solutions should be meted out.
Empowerment of education has become of the prevalent means in western country to combat the sexual crimes.However,it still denied due to the conservation in our society.Sex education has become the mainstream subject in the secondary schools in western country and it's showed it's effectiveness as it can resolve the curiosity of teenagers about sex.Parents and teachers shouldn't be shamed of answering the puzzlements of their children.
According to the statistics,mentally-disabled children have become the greatest victims in the sexual crimes.Lack of eduction to those vulnerable and disbelief from parents and teacher impaired these autistic children.This showed us that how important the role of education can be. Ergo,let's throw the archaic aspects and bring a novel and healthy image for sex to our descendants.

Jaw of sorrow

The anxiety never stop to haunt me, i still lived under the shadow of griefy and it's expanding substantially.I wonder if it is an exaggration that we can speak none in front of those foreigners but an exaggration from her will also be an 99 percent fact.I searched for the website once again and novel information displayed.Lots of aches really suffocated me.Qualifying test for english, choice of hostel,major,minor , interview of loan and my students suddenly pushed me to the peak of insanity.What if i failed the first ever english test in my life which is humiliating enough!What if my students get a worse result in this exam?The pressure from parents to study intesively and students' parents to motivate their kids are the only phrases that appeared in mind.And i am still in my way resorting the childish attitude and appearance which most people have no reason to worry about,unfortunately i stucked in the bottleneck.
I guess i faced my first ever junction in my life,bless me god...

I am trying to deter from sore conceptions however it seemed that reality is tyrannical always and everyone is forced to accept the fact that we look like apprentices in a different culture and surroundings.The anxiety of adapting a new lifestyle keep haunting me and thousands of aches such as scoffs,repel which are caused by the gap of culture or honestly standard.The messages from friends proved my premonition.So i guess i just have to cope with them.But the only thing that i can sure is dont ever be the only malaysian in your class!

Appreciation

IT
can be eaten with mouth
IT
can be tasted with buds
BUT IT
should not simply a supplement of nutrition to us
IT
should be the most precious gift from nature
which i ponder that we are disposing IT nowadays
dear my friends
appreciate IT
as IT is the most pivotal

staring at the screen at 11 night
my mind tries to show blank
but he was defeated
by the verbose and endless thoery
i was tortured thoroughly
self-demand can be costly
and it was proved on me
nothing is gratituos in the reality
I keep suffering from the pain
but i am convinced
it will be worthy
someday and somewhere

Embracing with you was unforgettable,
moments that we spend together,
was fast like a meteor,
but reminiscent and valuable
i should embody my heart
but seems that our destiny
are two parellel lines
should i let u fall into oblivion
or snatch the affection
that never exist between us?
suddenly
puzzlement infiltrate my whole body
LOVE is heart-rending
indeed

...

Today night i went for a movie with friends at sunway.Dont go to watch this movie(best and honestest ever advice from me) again!I also bought a STPM level organic chemistry reference book for preparation into NUS to study chemistry,let'see what can i do after one month^ ^

Is complement always a sincere one?Is critism always a sarcastic one?And is someone attitude will be totally different in the different person?Not trying to deny that i am always the conceited one but if you have the capability to represent yourself why should you miss the chance?Fame and glory are always alluring to anyone in the world ,it's just depend on much you could sacrifice and strieve to get them.Dont ever say that you want to become an ordinary person who has the most ordinary life in the world,that will just put yourself in the position of scoffing by others that your are apparent.Or perhaps your are dodging some extreme situations and obstacles in your life,so you choose (or pretend)to be prevalent.Everyone has the ticket to compete for the golden chance in their lifes.Take the pain to work again and snatch the victory from the jaw of defeat.That's when you turned to be extraordinary.Actually you aren't try to be extraordinary but you are just fullfulling your responsibilty as a human,so dont compare with the others.Everyone should have their own unusual life but they would only have one final destination--satisfaction.Dont envy and doubted about others accomplishment and remember when god is deciding to create you ,he will surely award you with the unique talent,find it and make it as your proudest!

The most crucial experience that i can gain after a visit to singapore's university is how systematic and classy a university can be,of course as a prospective student of it, i must start to behave maturely,competitively and individualistically(after i saw those singaporean students,i thought we might have to act like that..).NUS a dreamful alma mater of numerous pundits and orthodox students(like me) ,the first picture i viewed was a student who was listening to a ipod,reading a english book which i was definitely sure but leaking beside a wall and without wearing shoes,morever is a female?ok that's cool at least i realized how much they love to read at here regardless their image.The open house of NUS was just impressing ,the faculty brooths was held in the admission hall in level 2.Walking to the faculty of science,a conversant face came through me ,she was my senior who is currently pursuing the Bpharm degree and will be graduate in the april,it's a pity i failed to enter the pharmacy course in nus.However i wont ashamed ,from the information of the dean of pharmacy,they are only offering 140 place in each academic year for pharmacy and 10% of the place for the international students,now i know the reason of my failure ,just 14 places and i have to compete with the students from over 80 country which most of them have a higher qualification?ok i give up.Asking from the Dean of faculty of science , i decided to choose between chemistry and life science .It doesnt mean that i have to give up my preference thoroughly as you only have to choose 60%of the modules in your major ,the rest 40% you can use it to studying a minor programmes which i chose pharmaceutical science and of course CCA.Accomodation is not a anxiety to me as you can choose amongst the 7 on-campus residence.Each hall have their major aspects which are sports,culture,debate e.t.c.My naive dream of becoming a famous singer has never disappeared,so culture will definitely be my cup of tea.All right being anti-CCA for 6 years in my secondary school,i shall start to become a genuine 'excellent' student(emm thats sounds good).From the information of senior in nus,the hostel life will definitely be fascinating as there are various activities such as formal dine,hall celebrate day,sport gathering(i should start to exersice) which held monthly.I was bored hearing the praise(which i think is feigned)from the elders ,i shall pursue my university career in nus in the soon .Say hi to singapore and nus!^ ^

the only thing that i can express now was weary,weary and weary.Starting to feel the stresses of financial problem in studying overseas,i began to teach tuition recently.Just starting two weeks but my heart start to summon the feeling of giving up.This was when i really start to admire the students who is studying and working at the same time.Whatever i will try to suit the situation,tomorrow i will go to singapore with my parents to have a visit at NUS and NTU,this will be the right time to expand my view and knowledge , of course i will make my final decision to choose my preference of university.Just wait and see ...

3TH march,my fifth day of teaching tuition.Honestly,i fell in love with this job.As this was an one-on-one tuition,i had only one student in each classes.Differ from the other tuitions,i can understand my student deeper ,of course her strongest and weakest subject ,personalities end more important details.I enjoy teaching primary students indeed because of their naive thoughts,all their emotions and feelings were depicted on their faces.For example,when i was teaching them simpulan bahasa"buah hati",they will feel shy and express their shyness directly,no secrets and stresses isnt that good?They will sit for their test in the next week,and i asked them how much scores that they want to get,undoubtedly they answered 100%,all right it seems to be tough for me and them.But at least they told the truth in their heart,no more some "humble" and "government" languanges.700 per person seemed to be attractive ,altough it is five day per week, but you only need to teach two hours and a half per day,all right i finally found the perfect job!(in my aspect,maybe you dont think so?)

preconception on number one

Yesterday,my mum told me that my neighbour wanted me to have an one-on-one tuition with her daughter.Delightment turned to a disaster when her start to exaggrate her daughter is always the first and second in her class but her result dropped to maybe third or fourth recently and she hope that i can help her daughter to "maintain" her academic's "conquer" in the class.It reminded my life in the secondary school,when you got the first place in the class for 4 and 5 years,suddenly you slipped in one of the semester test, then there are someone who will discuss some stupid topic like'isnt he or she is the first place?see la this is the result of his or her arrogance!"All right number one deserves the humiliation and prejudice by everyone and this is a trend or i say is a tradition.Stresses faced for being number one are heavy as you have to received an "caring" attention from the parents , some "good"teachers and juniors and of course the scoffs from students.Succeeded in coping with it just bring you the fame and glory amongst the parents and teachers,but failure may be costly. I am not blaming those who always has the prejudice on number one but they should feel guilty for their condemntions.And lastly is there any differnce to become the first and third in the class?(i mean in an fair and square situation and not influence by any score system and anyone, i am sorry for being stubborn in the past but it's a fact...)

exclusive gathering for F-R-I-E-N-D-S

After a tiring two-hour tuition at penang,the gathering that i expected for nearly one month finally reached.Friends never failed to be one of the important parts in my life.Knowing that life is always hassle for us now , the moment that we can spend together becomes precious, at least it's valuable to me.Expectedly, the gathering which they said at 6.30pm will never be true.At 7.00pm,a white wira which was so conversant to me appeared in front of yong sheng house.Stepping into the car, the familar sound,smell and friends looked so memorable to me.Chatting with each other tend to be a routine to us.Hui Jie even said that we just like a group of aborigines which havent talk for a long time!Ya its really been a long time since we chat with each other.Eating roasted duck,playing mahjung and milionnaire are not simple activites anymore as it contained the yearning undertone of me.Friends may not always be able to be your side but they will surely be your listener no matter you are sad or happy.By knowing them, i realized that a true friend is not someone who always be your side but someone who treausre every moment with you .I love you ,TRUE friends!

loneliness

I am satisfied with my life now,motivation to study and improve knowlegde,but i realized that i was doing all this stuff alone and no one stand by my side.This was when i felt that i really need someone to rely on.When i was facing with the frustration during the sutdies, i need someone to talk with my sadness.When i was alone on the bed in night, i indeed desired to receive a sweet call from my sweetheart and heard some encouragement from her.Maybe it was too late for me to wish for having a lover now ,or maybe this feeling will vanish in a few days later,in this moment my heart told me that i need someone to rely on.Friends are no longer good friends as they will be busy for their own life .Parents are no longer caring parents as they think you need to be independent as a 18 year-old teenager.I felt isolated and dumped, i am sorry for my lie before that i can live alone till 36 ,but how can i find someone i really love and of course she love me?It's hard isnt it?

the journey of Nottingham

The journey of nottingham had come to its end on the last friday.To me,this university just impressed me indeed.Entering into this campus, a lake that bigger than our school attracted my eyes .Going to the block B which i had the interview there i meet the indian lady which called me for the interview.Waiting for the presentation to start,i met another six interviewers which came from other states. All of them was qualified with the advanced diploma or foundation.They shocked when heard that i used my high school exams to qualified for the interview.And i am the only person who under 20 years and a only man.I also met with few international students from africa, kenya,uk and pakistan.I am not even know their name but they just come here and greeting with me,what a enthuastic university.The presentation and interview did gain me a lot of latest knowledge and the Dean of faculty of science dr Stephen Doughut is really a humour and knowledegeable guy ,its a pity for me to miss an interview with him as my interviewer was a chinese woman called dr.kang.Surprisingly,she asked all the technical questions include the insulin,structure of protein in different level and the enzyme .I answered all the question correctly and she ultimately offers the scholarships to me .Its a relieve and the next activity is a tour to the campus.All the buildings are colour-indentified ,we visited the lab,library, association centre and all the spotrs facilities.This journey had really convinced me to study in this university,and lastly welcome you to Nottingham university with me!haha

mickey mouse vs bugs bunny part III

Personal preference and recommendation are always the same for us but in this topic, I choose to make a exceptional decision.I prefer mickey mouse to be my most admirable cartoon characters as my childhood memories kept a lot of mickey mouse's cute and beaming face .Walt disney was one of my admirable person as he overcame the fear to the mouse and create the greatest cartoon character in the world.However, the main audience of the cartoon are the youth and children, thus the cartoon characters should bring the postive influence and moral values to the audience.Mickey had been used frequently in the parliment and presidential elections inUS, Finland,Sweden e.t.c and it put mickey mouse on the spot of politic.Mickey had also reaweken the radicalism in other countries such as German and Italy.There are also incidents that Mickey Mouse was used by the radicals in Iraq and Palestine to teach children use AK-47 and greenades.Cartoon should bring happiness and moral values to us but not violence and cruel sexual.Compared to mickey mouse, Bugs Bunny rarely got criticsm by the public and it has a better reputation and positive influence to youth. Therefore,I choose Mickey mouse as my preference but I would recommend Bugs Bunny to all of you.
This is the end of my presentation.Please dont hesitated if you have any comments and question.Thank you.

mickey mouse vs bugs bunny part II

Walt disney and warner bros brothers company has been the most successful company in creating the famous cartoon character for over decades.Of course,the essential aim to producing the admirable cartoon characters is to gain the fame and glory.Clearly, market response is a pivotal part to determine the success of a cartoon character.Mickey mouse failed to impress the audience due to its mischiveous behaviour in the first film of mickey mouse 'Plane Crazy".The first film that drawned the attention of the public was "Steamboat Willie" which was published in 18th November 1928.The variety of mickey mouse appearance such as suitor, gloved , soldier and in different countries' troditional clothes had fascinated the audience.Musical performances such as Fantasia and Cactus Kids are the continuous result of audiences' interest to mickey mouse.Nowadays, Mickey had become the head of the mickey mouse club which include minnie. donald,daisy, pluto,goofin and much more.Unfortunately, the critism about mickey mouse had never stoppped.The origin of mickey mouse in America has made itself to become the symbol of antiAmerica.Mickey mouse had been banned in other countries such as Germany as it ' reawaken the new antigerman feeling since the world war II .
Compared to Mickey mouse ,bugs bunny has a much positive reputation and response from the public.Bugs bunny was listed as the 50 greatest cartoon charactersby TV Guide in 2002 ansd it was given the honour of No.1.Its impact on the comedian cant also be underestimated.Famous comedian Dave Chappelle cited Bugs Bunny as its earliest influence and praised the voice actor Mel Blanc.Due to its fame, bugs bunny won the academy awards in 1958 by film Knighty knight Bugs.The humour og bugs bunny impressed the audience and it produce a lot of catchphrases such as 'whats up Doc' , 'Aint i a stinker' and ' Of course you realize it means war!"

mickey mouse vs bugs bunny

Knowing as the recognizable and greatest cartoon characters in the world,mickey and bunny will be celebrating their 81th and 69th birthday in 2009.Today, let us look into their history and life journey together.
Origin and time of birth are the crucial purport for an admirable character.Mickey mouse was born in 18 november 1928 by a designer called ub iwerks.Initially, mickey mouse is created for the replacement of an ealier cartoon character ostwald the rabbit by charles mintz.However, the betrayal of mintz made walt disney to come out with a brand new cartoon character and this was when they hired ub iwerks for the design.During the process of producing mickey mouse,ub iwerks had designed several cartoon characters that rejected by the walt disney but turn to the famous characters nowadays,they are carabella cow and horace horsecollar.Inspiration of creating mickey mouse came from the old pet mouse of iwerks's farm and this was when he decided to design a new mouse cartoon character.In the earlier time,this mouse was named 'mortimer mouse',but iwerks's wife was convinced him to change it and this was mickey mouse came to be.
Bugs bunny was born in 1940 in Brooklyn, New York by two designer Tex Avery and Robert Mckimson.Several historicans was believed that bugs was influenced by an earlier cartoon character called Max The Hare by Charlie Thorson.Even Avery admitted that he had "practically" stole the design of Thorson.Somehow it was chosen in numerous cartoon character in that time due to his personality and its known around' termit terrace' as bugs bunny.
After going through all this 81 years,the emerge of innumberable cartoon characters such as powerpuff girls and spiderman had tried to intimidate the conquest of mickey in the world.Contraily, mickey still remained as the greatest cartoon characters in the world.What makes it so special?Humanize is the attract point to the audience.There was a said by walt disney'a little fellow try the best as it could.People laugh at it as mickey is so human and all of this was started by a mouse!"Undeniably, mickey was similar to us-human , the true love to minnie,the friendship with pluto,the kindness to donald, all of these depicted that mickey was humanized,and this was its personality that attracted numerous audiences.
What about Bugs Bunny?I think that the appearance of itself is special enough.A big teeth and always used the carrot to say its catchphrase"Of course you realize it means war!"The controversy about Bugs Bunny that it is a rabbit or harehad never stopped.Ya most people say that rabbit and hare are the same.However in scienctific aspect,they are not actually the same.Somehow,this issue has increased the popularity of Bugs Bunny.
Both of them are the first cartoon character to have a star in the Hollywood Walk Of Hame and they won numerous awards that acknowledged their distributions to the world.Over the decades,they competed for the animated popularity but the historical moment came in 1988 as both of them appeared in one film called'Who Framed Roger Rabbit".

unexpected gaining

How can antibodies related to AIDS virus?It's look like an easy and funny question to us,a group of graduated high school students. However, a truth in our aspects wouldn't be a guneine truth if we dont looked into it thoroughly.
As we know,we can know the presence of panthogens if there are specific antibodies which against these invaders.However,to HIV it may not work as there is a window period about 3-6 weeks when someone with HIV. Detectable antibodies against HIV can only exist at least 30 days after his or her infection.Thus we cant directly detect the presence of HIV virus by antibodies.Thus some specific assay must be carried out,ELISA test have been an prevalent test to HIV due to its high sensivity.About the instuction use of this test,you can just find the information online(if you are really interested!)as it might be to verbose for me to explain it.Things is not going to be 100% percent perfect,a great disputation against the ELISA test is about its borderline between positive and negative result.Maybe i will be the next biologist who create the most perfect assay and cure for HIV infectors.Who knows...

感觉or精准？

昨夜与惠洁的聊天时，他的一句话触发了我想写文章的冲动。我说了我学英文是讲求specification，而他却说他学英文是靠感觉的。很值得思索的问题，到底学语文是该靠感觉或讲求精准性呢？对于较偏爱议论文的我，当然较着重于事实和理论，理所当然的在陈述理论和事实时需要用非常肯定的语气来表达，所以vocab的精准性当然较为重要。靠感觉的议论文不会是好的议论文，因为它可能夹杂了你当下的不满等情绪。但对于惠洁，她叫偏爱descriptive这类较带文学气息的作文种类，这种作文的内容必须带有作者本身的感情才能带出文章的特色，vocab的精准性就派不上用场了，写描写文所用的词语都较偏向于运用简单的字，并带出他本身更深的涵义。过于公式化的描写文无法激发读者想看的欲望，更别说是好文章。
这是本人对学习语文的小小心得，如果任何人想发表自己对学习语文的意见，欢迎！

不懈的努力

近日来的生活对我来说可是非常地充实.早上起来吃完早餐后我就打开电脑和笔记本,然后就上了一个网站,开始不断搜索新英文单字,并将之记录下来.对我来说,这是我准备前往竞争强大的大学所做的准备,好不会被淘汰嘛!对于英文掌握能力不是很强的我,剩下的几个月就是我的冲刺时间.一个礼拜两天的英文补习并不满足我,在下个月我会再加入raja uda的英文补习班,为的就是不想输.我承认我是怕输的,但谁不怕到时没大学收,就算收了进到去也会怕跟不上进度啦...可能大家会觉得我还是生活在过去的日子就是拼命读书,大家都学做工,学赚钱,学独立,学会在社会立足.但对我来说此时的我还是想增强自己的语文能力和自己以后读的科系的相关知识,好打个底嘛...无论如何我们都一起奋斗吧!

成果

Since i attended my english class for one week already, now i am going to post my first ever guneine argumantative essay .the title is "The government should give aid to the less fortunates,but some people argue that we should teach them how to fish not give them a fish.What do you think?"
The financial crisis have swept over the world in the recent years.Hence, the supplement of allowence to the less fortunates in this global calamity from the government has become a popular issue amongst the public.However, the disputation against this policy has appeared as some people think that government should provide employment to them rather than merely giving an allowance .As a matter of fact, several factors should be taken into account when implemting this policy.
Financial conditions should be considered precisely as it displays the wealth of a country.Compared to a developed country,a developing country 's national treasury will be definitely weaker to assist the less fortunate due to the tardy development of its economy.Moreover, the provision of allowance without control may lead to an economic collapse.A government who is failed with malversation is not advised to provide allowance to its citizens as it may worsen the economic condition of the country.Apart from this, the aid to the less fortunate should also depend on the global pecuniary condition.
The propotion between population and employment opportunities decides the employment rae in a country.The enhancement of technology in a developed country has brought about the mechanization in every industry.As a result,the unemployment rate in a dveloped country will surely be higher than developing countries which mainly rely on labour.
The provision of allowance should be appropriate as it may cause the laziness amongst the public.Humanity is realistic thus human will prefer to sit at home when the can earn money in both ways.Feeling of unfairness existing in the labour class may create a social turmoil.
All in all,the aid to the less fortunate do bring contributions to the development of a country when it is implemented in the right time and right place.

很好

一个人

最近的生活真的很孤独，一个人吃饭，一个人上网，一个人看戏，真的很闷。。。看着大家都忙于自己的事情，突然发现自己是无所事事的。有点不是滋味，今天很意外的受到了nottingham大学的来电，告诉我申请的pharmacy course被录取了，要我在二月十三号到他的大学跟pharmacy的staff interview，自己并没有感到太高兴，因为老实说我认为被录取是意料中事，只是想不到这么快罢了。。。终于自己有一件事情可以忙了，想到何以和自己未来的职业相关的人士交谈就很兴奋，随缘吧！在这里要谢谢傅金美老师的提携，幸好他想副校长提出了我要到学校当临教的事情，要不然等到n年都不会有人睬我哦。。。真希望自己接下来的生活可以充实点，有英文，由学生，应该会很有趣。。。

微不足道

星期一正式去到了gurney附近的indahria apartment开始了英文补习，正确来说更像是一场英文辩论会。老师出乎意料的是一位年仅二十六岁的男生，处处还对他抱有怀疑的态度。但刚开始给我的问题就已经将我彻底击败了。想不到大学的论文是那么的难写，首先他给了我第一样功课，听着了“gorvernment should give aid to the less fortunate.But someone say that we should teach them to fish and not give them a fish.What do you think?"这个题目确实震惊了我，想不到大学argumantative类型的论文是如此的“成熟”。chris也开始叫我用成人的思想去针对这个题目发表意见，我费了大约十五分钟才想出了意见，庆幸的是我的意见获得了他的赞同，接下来她又给了我一个题目，“british parlimentary system and american palimentary system, which system do you think is more effective?"很显然如果你不清楚这两种机制的话，你是不可能会作大的，我只好乖乖听他的解释，在这过程中我的确获得了很多英文额外的知识，更学到了一些英文专用名词。这两个小时的时间的确让我获益匪浅，带着他给我的功课我怀着愉快的心情回家了。真期待下次的补习。顺便告诉大家以上两题都是ielts的作文制定题目，尤其是第一题，是这次ielts考试的热门题哦。有兴趣补习的人可以来问我哦！

抉择

心很挣扎,在等待大学录取的消息期间,心是那么的紧张,究竟自己能不能进到自己的理想大学,能不能读到自己的理想科系,就急剧的一句话的确影响了我,读什么都可以,最重要是能找吃的,如果纯粹为了兴趣而断送了自己的钱途的确不是件好事.医生,药剂学,的确苦了我的头脑啊....宣读医生并不得到除了我舅舅以外的人的支持,就连惠洁也告诉我说读医生是很辛苦的,一读就要个七八年,雷也说医生是回报率最低的行业,而且我本身又是怕血一族.做医生的路途上的确许多困难是我要克服的.药剂系嘛,难度较低,时间较短,而且读出来后赚的钱也不少,但是对我来说就缺乏了一种挑战性.读了十二年学校,真的很讨厌一层不变的东西,对久了真的会发狂.药剂学嘛就是有这个问题.痛苦挣扎着如何抉择,自己的决定受到了动摇,这是我在学习路上从未试过的,真的希望大学快点及录取通知单给我让我快点释了报复吧...