Life is what you need to do,not what you merely want to do

I juz wondered that what kind of life that i would have had if i was born in Tibet?Natural disasters are swalloning so much innocent lives but we can do nothing to stop the tragedy.I think my mindset changed a lot since i have moved to here.I am more sentimental now,but bewilderness never came into my mind when hui jie asked "do you seriously think that what you are doing now is what you want indeed?" I answered "I need to stick on what am i doing now,cause i am juz doing what reality tell me to do."Life can never be driven by your own desperation and interest as in this world, so many people cant even have a life.

期待

虽然距离回到槟城的时间还有一个月又十二天，但现在我的已经开始在心里盘算回到后的计划。以前从来都不会对那里的事物有任何留恋，但现在身处异乡的自己才开始体会起这份心情。我保证回到槟城的两个礼拜里，我会把整个槟城走完！！！

LOVE

I couldnt believe that my mind had changed thoroughly.LOVE is such like blood and i am like vampire now,i am thirsty.

空虚感

现在的我，是一个人坐在阅读室里发呆的。昨天的平安夜和这里的朋友一起去庆祝了，果然和自己预期的想要的气氛完全不一样。在乌节路的圣诞气氛很高潮和疯狂，但我却丝毫没有被感染到的感觉。我一直是处于勉强应付朋友和郁闷的状态，但为了不让朋友失望我还是装出很尽兴的样子。拒绝了到朋友家过夜和隔天去教堂观看表演的邀请，理由是我不喜欢到别人家做客。但清楚我的人绝对知道这是个借口，老实说呆在这里久了，对这里的不适感厌恶感是越来越多了。我宁愿选择一个人发呆寂寞，也不愿勉强自己去应付别人，这个本来就是我的性格。大家说圣诞节是要人多才会热闹，但我一直都认为只要有好朋友在身边，圣诞节才会是快乐的。希望明年的圣诞节我能够在我熟悉我爱的人身边度过，坦白说，我越来越讨厌新加坡了

chillax-ing

After a series of restless exam,i am currently in holiday now.Resting in home now,enjoying the time that i can sit in room and do nothing.Listening to his favourite song,looking to the garden outside my room,but after a week,everything will go back to normal.I hate the fast-paced life of singapore,it make me felt extremely stressed,yet singapore is really a perfect place to study.Just look at the people here,motivation of studying is everywhere in here,i need to overcome the stress and lazinees,i am convinced that i can do it.But before that i need time to CHILLAX

败

读的半死，结果看到考试题目——我顿时傻眼,经济-完，modern chem-半死，基因学-未知，物理化学-未知。综合起来，tidak memuaskan!!我生平第一次对考试那么没信心。真的越来越有压迫感了，进到这种著名大学果然是不好受的。现在灵验了，最好是不要有C，虽然经济的机率很高。。。谁能够理解那种你满怀挫败感的走出考场时，偶尔听到一两个中国人说“满容易的”的心情，我真的服了

深晨

三点了，我还在啃书。这种日子真的很难过，不读就等着做帮人垫底的人，读成绩也不会好到哪里去。你会问我我何时变得那么的消极，但你相信我，初怀大志的我，在这里看到了一群类似头脑结构不明（出奇的大和万能）的个体，你就知道消极的态度在这里是常见的。就这样保佑我明天考试顺利！！